If only I could sleep!

I am sitting here awake when I would love to be sleeping! I have a bunch of things to do later today and have yet to get any sleep! I need to go pick up some things from town, do laundry, study for my licensure exam and I volunteer on Tuesday evenings from five to nine.

I am having mixed emotions about this licensure exam. I am so excited that I have finally made it this far...that I am so close to being a professional social worker. At the same time, I just paid a whole lot of money to take this test that I could potentially fail!

I also bought the study guide so I would have better odds of passing. Tomorrow, I am going to get out my notes from my classes and my books (yes I am a pack rat). I know I can pass this thing with flying colors (whatever that means).

I also can not wait to get a JOB!!! These days all I hear is budget this..economy that...and I think..wow...this really stinks for those of us who need jobs! I am hoping that things begin to look up pretty soon.

In the mean time, I am going to do everything I can to make myself more marketable to employers...even if it means paying to take a licensure exam!

Being an Adult is tough

As children we dream of being all grown up. I remember wearing my moms shoes and clunking on he kitchen floor. I couldn't imagine what on earth adults would have to complain about. Unfortunately I became an adult in one of the worst economic times America has encountered. I am trying to find a Social Work job. I have had three interviews recently, and I feel pretty confident about them. I am excited to get my adult life started, but also very scared. I am sure everyone has the same fear of failure. But I know I will be fine. I have God on my side. If he is for me who can be against me?

All you ever need to know.

"For all have sinned; all fall short of God's glorious standard." Romans 3:23
"But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners." Romans 5:8
"For "Anyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be saved." Romans 10: 13.

What more does one need to know?

Decisions

I spent the past five years of my life working towards a degree. When I finally graduated on May 9th, I was so proud of myself. For once in my life I felt like I had truly accomplished something wonderful--just for me. Now its over a month later and I am miserable! I have applied to several jobs and for the longest time heard nothing. Last week I had an interview and it went awesome. I have two more next week, and I am sure they will be great too. One would imagine I would be on top of the world right now, however, my heart is broken. I decided to give my heart to God five years ago. I have grown so much in him and all I want now is to please him. He said it wouldn't be an easy way of life and he was right.

The fact is I want him to guide my life and I want to follow with a merry heart. My family is pretty upset with me because they think I might move away to hurt them. The crazy part is no one on earth could ever love them like I do. I want to be a good daughter, but I have to be a good daughter to God first. I have cried my eyes out. Mostly because I just want my family to support me and be proud of me. I want them to be there for me and tell me that it I can do anything.

If you could just take a moment and pray for me I would appreciate it. If God is for me who can be against me? I keep trying to remind myself of that. I know that God has an amazing plan for me and I can't wait to see what it is.

a great date.

The weather in Kentucky on a day like this is unbeatable. I went to Church this morning and the preacher preached about Abner's death, and how it relates to us. He said that just like Abner, we have a city of refuge in God (He gave the background on Abner and the Law of the Avenger and cities of refuge). Its sad that people die all the time just like Abner, knowing there is a place of refuge, but chosing to stay outside of it when our avenger could be there at any moment.



After Church, I came back to my fiance's family's house and enjoyed some time alone. His mom and little brother went out of town to visit someone in the hospital and do some shopping. His dad fell asleep rather quickly watching Gladiator. My fiance had to work today until 5. I was looking so forward to him getting off from work because we were going to celebrate our anniversary tonight. Three years and some odd days ago we went on our first date to the drive in. Every year since we have been to the drive in as our anniversary date. Yesterday was actually the anniversary of when we started dating, but we had agreed to go out tonight becasue his friend's bachelor party was last night.



While I waited on him I sat out by the pool and caught some rays. I have to admit I might have set out there too long considering how light complected I am. I read some from Breaking Dawn and splashed my feet in the water. It felt amazing. After that, I came inside and watched Night at the Museum because the second movie would be playing at the drive in. I wanted to be prepared. After that I resumed reading in my book until Travis got home.



He had suprised me earlier when he said he was on call for the night (he's a deputy). We had decided to go on and go out anyway. We ordered a pizza and went on our way. The first feature was UP and I loved it. The second was Night at the Museum 2-it was great too. I enjoyed this time with my sweetheart so much. We laughed and giggled and held hands. I am so blessed to have this man in my life.

Thank You Father!

Today has been absolutely beautiful. The sky was so blue and the clouds so white...The air felt so fresh and clean in my nose and lungs. I raised my hands to the sky and just said a little prayer thanking God for allowing me to see this day. It feels amazing to be alive on such a wonderful day.

In addition to this beautiful day, I have a wonderful bunch of Christians to share it with. My mom recently gave her life back to God. This was one of my prayers answered. My mom and dad have been going to church and I know they will only benefit from being involved in the body of Christ.

My fiance is also a Christian. He is the kind of man we all dream of having, and God has blessed me so much to have him. I realize now that I have wanted someone like him more than anything in my life, but I have never believed I deserved someone like him. I pretended to be satisfied with less than amazing for years, and I am so happy to know that I can say I love him completely and mean it. Tomorrow we will have been together for 3 years!

I have so much to be thankful for. I find more things that are beautiful and wonderful in my life ever day. My heavenly father is amazing, and deserving of praise!